如果累了,

调整脚步,

而不是初衷.

好好珍惜自己

在那天 走出護蔭 未怕它 要怎發生
沿路我一個 每步足印
獨處中不失安全感


下雨天 也不自困 為凍傷世界送我的熱吻
長夜有星宿 照亮黑暗
伴你親筆手繪這人生

你要懂得好好珍惜自己
學放手這個簡單道理
我願明日以後 亦靠緊你
伴你一起分享清風晨曦

逝去多少傷心不必提起
自信心散發光彩極美
以後能被愛著 是無需運氣
若你懂得好好欣賞自己

任雨灑 猛風地震 若發生 看它發生
無力去掌控 每步足印
亦細賞精彩這人生

帶著童稚那份幻想好奇
領會存在意義 樂與悲
全程盡記錄 在成長日記
未怕一分一刻匆匆如飛

你要懂得好好珍惜自己
學放手這個簡單道理
我願明日以後 亦靠緊你
探索一天一天許多驚喜

逝去多少傷心不必提起
自信心散發光彩極美
以後能被愛著 是無需運氣
若你懂得好好欣賞自己

你要懂得好好珍惜自己
學放手這個簡單道理
以後能被愛著 是無需運氣
感動來自願意 真心愛 這份美

Had been long since I last updated my blog.

Life had been the same on repeat mode.

Nothing fancy.

Work stress is still there with the multiple changes/ KPIs/Cost Saving/"Restructuring"

Nevertheless, positive mindset is still the way to get through those.

Taking walks, feeling the freshness of being in the nature.

Babysitting the niece and nephew, reading them bedtime stories.

Binge-watching dramas that are too dramatic for real life with sis.

Whip up simple meal and drink for home alone movie night when you simply wanna relax at home with no disturbance.

Hi-Tea with girlfriends for a never-ending catch up.

Workout and sweat like madness to try to shed off some fats.

Simplicity. 

Company or not. 

Being the real self, that's important.

Self-awareness post here to remind to put myself as priority at times.

 怎么有种害怕的感觉?

当学会了接受并且放下了,

那就证明自己已经成熟了。

不去挂念, 

不去想念。

只有祝福。

谢谢曾经给过的美好。

该不该

对不对

是不是

能不能

虽然很黑白

但已经分辨不出来了...

被夹在灰色地带

越来越迷惘了... 

Let Somebody Go - Coldplay X Selena Gomez

We had a kind of love
I thought that it would never end
Oh my lover, oh my other, oh my friend

We talked around in circles and
We talked around and then
I loved you to the moon and back again

You gave everything this golden glow
Now turn off all the stars, 'cause this I know
That it hurts like so
To let somebody go

All the storms we weathered
Everything that we went through
Now without you, what on earth am I to do?

When I called the mathematicians and
I asked them to explain
They said love is only equal to the pain

And when everything was going wrong
You could turn my sorrow into song
Oh, it hurts like so
To let somebody go
To let somebody go

Ohh (ohh)
Ohh (let somebody, let somebody go)
(Yeah)

Oh, when you love somebody
When you love somebody
Got to let somebody know
Oh, when you love somebody
When you love somebody
Got to let somebody know

So when you love somebody
When you love somebody
Then it hurts like so
To let somebody go
It hurts like so
To let somebody go

But you're still with me now, I know
(Let somebody, let somebody go)
Oh (let somebody, let somebody go)
But you're still with me now, I know

 

Sending off my paternal grandmother this morning.

It had been a good morning with the clear blue sky which I believe my grandmother is now at a better place.

Tears are definitely flowing, grieving over the lost.

In memory, she is always that loving grandmother who took care of me when I was young.

She had so many grandchildren and even great grandchildren, yet never bias towards anyone, always trying to give the best to all.

Grandma, rest in peace.

I love you and you will always be missed.

Had been long since I last updated.

Got both my Covid-19 vaccines and it will be officially effective tomorrow!

Say YES to dining in!

Last weekend had a so much needed retreat with the family.

Cruise trip on Dream Cruise, thanks to Dad and Aunt for the free room that we just need to pay the tax only.

It was a 3 day 2 night cruise to nowhere.

Did the swab test at around 3pm and finally board the cruise like 5pm.

Bathtub in the cabin with balcony!

That was nice.

Since we did a swab test and not yet fully effective from the vaccine, we only get to dine in for day 1 and day 2 breakfast.

Catch the shows only on day 1.

Day 2 was a fun packed day.

First up, with obstacle course and flying fox.

Next, we played table tennis and then the mini golf.

Then we went back to change for our swimming which can be booked for 1 hour.

Water slides were fun though bruises was what I can feel now.

Next we went to takeaway our lunch back to the cabin and relax a little.

We went for Muay Thai Class and Rhumba Ballroom Dancing lesson.

After which it is the rock climbing!

So much of activities even for the non-gambler like me!

Day 3 was just breakfast and there we got off the cruise at around 9am.

Was pretty tiring but definitely a good retreat after so long.

Back to reality and had been working pretty late.

Sometimes, I really do hope to slow down a little.

Yet, things are pushing me to move forward.

Much thoughts were in the mind but well, take time to sort it out.

Sometimes simplicity is best isn't it?

Not to overthink and just follow the flow.

Mind had been going through a lot.

Good and bad.

Looking at how my life had been.

Tragic? Pathetic? Nothing seems to be right?

Nevertheless, it is my life.

Not to look back and get depress.

Instead look forward and free myself from the past.

As I always reflect, not to repeat the same from the past so as to not get hurt.

Yet, the more I remind myself not to and yet unknowingly I get myself into it.

Seems like I'm always moving towards the choice that always get me hurt.

But at least now, I'm learning on how and when to step on the break.

Well, it is another lesson I need to learn.

Not taking it negatively.

Striving to be a better person.

Not someone to give one's burden.

I know, one day, I will.

Till then peeps!~

自由

不寻求认可

只要能快乐

不需任何所谓的辩解

因为不在乎能被理解

不会羡慕

不会孤独

自在就好啊！

但能做到吗？

Had been long since my last post.

Well, not much to update as live just pretty much involve work, eat, sleep and play with the niece and nephew.

Recently just turned 35 and still SINGLE!

And Yes, everyone is asking me when am I going to get a flat.

Not that I am really financially stable to get a flat on my own since there is a lot of uncertainty with the current situation.

Shall slowly hunt for it and see how it goes.

As I get wiser (not going to use the word older), I realised my mindset, priorities, views differs.

Perhaps, it is to change for the better?

And who knows what is coming ahead?

Gonna just have this YOLO mindset for now to do things I might not dare to try before.

Who can anticipate what's up in the future right?

No risk, no gain.

Need to get away from being too simple in life.

Not saying I'm getting complicated, just perhaps, need different aspects into the boring life.

Definitely not everyday about work.

Though work as always had been pretty swarmed for me since my job involves logistics and it is getting real bad with the COVID and lockdowns.

Shall end here as a short post and update.

Everyone keep fighting and stay safe.

Hopefully we can soon be Covid-free and travel ban will be released.

I'm missing some of the countries out there that I wanna travel back.

Tata~

January has ended just in a blink

February has just arrived!

A Quick update!

Got a good news today first thing in the morning~

Finally after 7 years with the company from the previous promotion

I've given promotion!

Though its only promote a job grade,

And the increment wasn't alot and was expected to do even more,

But it definitely motivate me a little that all the hard work are paid off!

I would say I had a fruitful journey with the company

Though I had been missing promotion opportunities with me taking up challenges to change roles instead of staying put with the current.

Work and Life doesn't quite balance up well.

Hopefully more good things come with the new management style.

Short update here for another small achievement in life.

Continue to chiong for better days and hopefully more good news to come!

把幸福交给一个人，

要伤得起？

那，

太容易伤自己，

是因为太爱你？

每每，

自己会被当作便利贴般，
随手可得，
又容易丢舍。

有时候，
还真不敢相信所谓的爱情。

爱情，
它就像泡泡般。
不具体，
不明确，
会慢慢的消失，
多么没有安全感。

往往的跟着感觉走，
却换来偏题鳞伤的痛。

不轻易的投入爱情，
却被说冷漠无情。

因为顾虑而建立的防卫。
因为不想让自己犯同样的错。
因为不想再跌入同样的伤心。

听起来像是借口，
但每个人的经历不一样，
领悟的思维也不一样。

我们都不一样。

Someday or One Day

Someday or One Day

Sunset fades away

Streetlights start to blaze
A turntable corner café
As evening fades to gray

Red brick alleyways
Winding like a maze
These memories rewind, replay
And I am faraway

He said to me that one day
He'd meet me by the Milky Way
Impossible to stay away, impossible to stay
But please tell me that someday, one day

Played this song for days
Wandering in a haze
Soundtrack turned up all the way
A smile to end the day

He said to me that one day
He'd meet me by the Milky Way
Impossible to stay away, impossible to stay
You'll be back to me someday, one day...

He said to me that one day
He'd meet me by the Milky Way
Impossible to stay away, impossible to stay~
But, please tell me that someday
Please tell me that someday

You'll be back to me someday, one day

不讨厌就是喜欢吗？

喜欢就是不讨厌吗？

人与人之间，

没有绝对的喜欢和讨厌。

有时，

就是这种复杂的感觉，

而产生了错觉。

情感，

要理的清楚，

并非容易。

 放下了的定义是什么呢？

没有不甘心

没有复合的期待

没有刻意想要忘记过去

只有祝福对方过的幸福快乐。

真心的。

活在当下，

因为你永远不知下一秒会发生什么事。

充实的过每一天，

不后悔自己做的每一个决定，

也不埋怨日子有多艰辛，

开心的，充满正能量的去看待事情。

想做的事情尽快去完成，

有能力的时候多帮助需要帮助的人，

因为这辈子不懂有多长。

珍惜每一刻，

回忆也好，当下也罢。

美好的，不好的，

都是人生的经历。

PS: 人生短短几十年，开心的过吧。眼泪，别再轻弹了！

 很多女孩都渴望嫁给爱情，

但这幸福能持续多久呢？

 爱情里...

有错过，没有过错.

Love...

It could be a miss, but not fault.

Welcome September.

Almost a quarter of the year left till we welcome another year: 2021.

Counting the days to

- Niece turning 3 in Oct

- Nephew coming out in Nov

- Usual X'mas Feast in Dec

- Planning to have a Family Staycation in Dec too

We all need a little break from the dailies.

Though we are stuck within our own country,

There are still many things to explore which you might not aware.

Sounds like we are the only ones boosting our own economy now.

 

With all the new norms with wearing mask whenever we step out of home,

Ups the hygiene level with washing hands often, sanitizing the hands,

I'm sure we will get pass this COVID-19.

Sharing this song by our local singer: JJ Lin <<Stay With You>>

Till then peeps.

Stay healthy and positive!

We will get through it together.

Aja aja fighting!

Had been long since I last updated.

Life had been all about 

Working from home, 

Wearing mask once we step out of the house,

Washing hands more diligently,

Maintaining 1M apart from each other,

Avoiding crowded places, etc..

This is now the new norm in SG.

Had been real long since meet up with friends and family to dine

Since there is a limit of 5 pax per table.

Weekends had been more of a Netflix and chill

Walking to Jurong to takeaway something else from the usual we have nearby.

Hopefully we will be Covid-Free soon!

New bundle of joy coming soon in Nov!

And I'm going to be an Aunt to a little boy soon!

This year had been a tough year with the virus going on.

Nothing much achieved except for more stresses and pressures to face.

Colleague then reminded me that I can start looking around for flat.

Hitting the 35 eligible age to own a house myself. 

Though it could be putting myself into debt. 

Happy Debt? Probably not so in the current state.

Retrenchment resuming.

Hopefully I dont get into mid life crisis and lose a job now.

So had been working real hard.

Well, Just hope everyone is still doing well.

Stay healthy,

Keep safe,

Be happy.

Life can be short yet fulfilling.

Love could bring us further than you would ever wonder.

At the different stage of life, there is a whole new experience there.

Be brave to strive for what you aim.

Be daring to move the hardest step.

Sometimes, it may be a wrong move, you might regret.

But, will you regret not making a step forward?

Leaving this post with a question to ponder.

Till then peeps~

Aja aja fighting!

Had been long since I last update the blog
With the many things happening
Everyone can get pretty stressed up

With the extension of the circuit breaker
And even stricter controls of the crowd and essential services
It is definitely impacting everyone's lives.
But let's believe this small endurance would let us break free from this virus soon.

At times when you feel stressed,
Always do reach out the following link.

https://www.healthhub.sg/a-z/support-groups-and-others/20/call-on-these-when-you-need-help

Lighten up a little with things you can do at home

Ups the cooking skills, 
Start with whipping a simple meal
Get ideas from cooking trends like the following

Dalgona Drinks
Breakfast Sandwich
Oreo Mug Cake
Brazilian Cheese Puff (Probably can go lesser on the oil for this recipe)

Quite legit after trying it out

Sharing some of my home cooked meals I did!
And glad I didn't chop off any fingers.

Souffle Pancake

Brazilian Cheese Puff

Yong Tau Foo Soup

Just some sharing to help curb this Covid-19.
Stay safe everyone.
Till then peeps~

17.02.2020
Bidding farewell to our Rabbit Churro.
The lovely boy who always comfortably lying on my lap while I cut his nails.
The naughty boy who always so impatient for his food.
My most like video in Tiktok featuring this cheerful boy.
I know you are now in a better place.
You have your brother Nacho there with you.

Tears. It flows.
You will always be remembered.

Love you, Churro.

Monday blues
Feeling very lethargic this morning

Complete the Netflix series yesterday
Love is Blind
An experiment with men and women talking within the pods
Not seeing each other till they proposed
Handphones were kept
And all they can do is talk within the pods with a thin wall between them

After the proposal and acceptance
The very first time they will see each other that they feel connected through verbal communication
And then having slightly more than a month to prepare for their wedding
 An experiment to see if Love is really Blind

Well, following through the series
Especially after the couples first met each other
Having a mini-honeymoon
Stay together
Plan for the wedding

Many issues and differences definitely came out
Age. race, acceptability of the family, social media influence, etc.

While they were at the pods, there were no other influence and purely just talking to know each other more
Yet, staying together, the daily conflicts, the facial expression which doesnt tally with the words said
It is a whole lot of differences
Butterflies had before might go away with the reality
But who relies on butterflies to preserve the love?

For me, I do believe that butterflies trigger the falling in love spell
Yet, for a lasting love or what we always go after forever love,
It takes more than that.
Understanding, communicating, compromising, being supportive
Are something to continuously be done
Keeping the love warmth and growing

Relationship is a lifelong lesson
No definite rationale behind keeping a relationship strong

So much of reflection from a series.
But a good think through I feel
Never to take people around you for granted
Treasure them
Hold them tight
Even though some may hurt you
Nevertheless, Love is all that matters

New start of the month!
Hope everything gets better!

Aja aja fighting!
Till then peeps~

Mid week!
Haven't been updating that often.
Work is hectic with even tighter KPIs to hit
Drilling into mini amounts to bring down the values
Feeling so lethargic recently that I always doze off on laptop

Well, someone posted me a question recently that set me thinking too.
Will you go back to your ex if he asked you back
In the past I would say "Yes" without thinking
Now perhaps, too afraid of being abandoned again.
The reason why I would say "Yes" without thinking
He is really a good person
I felt comfortable being with him
He understand my unusual self I guess

I am not the very vocal kinda person
More of a "negotiable" kinda person
Seemed to be easily bullied
Even when quarrels I would not want to say anything impulse
I would think it through
And find a way out to avoid such conflict

Yet such a personality of mine irks to some people
Seemingly as a hypocrite

Much about personality
I guess probably there is no perfect person
It is finding the one who could accept it

So much of what is in the mind
Yet so busy up with work
Just hope my name won't be on the retrenchment list
Its mid week already!
Hang in there
Hopefully I wont die from tomorrow's weight training!
Aja aja fighting!

Till then peeps

Friday! TGIF?
I badly need more sleep.
It was such a good weather to sleep on this morning.
Nothing much to update
The same old work and go home kinda weekday routine

Thursday should be workout day
But bro got lazy cos of the rain
So was a home workout day
Not being monitored
I did half of the planned HIIT workout
Still I feel some thigh aching today

Have been thinking through a bit more too
Thanks to the drama that finally I had finished 42 episodes of it
Really need to know what I really want in life
Felt aimlessly living everyday
Passing day like just another day
But well, I am always glad to have my family with me
Even though we might have our quarrels
Still we don't bear any grudges
At least I don't
Had been quarantine over the weekends
And I supposed this coming weekends too
Might be bored but gonna keep ourselves safe during this critical period!
Hopefully all gets better and I can plan for holiday soon!


Till then peeps~
Stay safe and healthy!
Aja aja fighting!

Tuesday! Passed my Monday Blues.
But why Tuesday is also blue!
Weekends are always staying home due to COVID-19
Seems like the situation is under controlled
Though everyday there is more new cases.

Had been feeling stressed up
Not sure how to handle it
Some words are hard to put it across.
Too bluntly, it hurts.
Too rounded, it might not be able to put across correctly.
It is adding pressure on me.

Well, hopefully things get better.

As I watched romance dramas
Talking about relationship
And I realize how much I fear of it
Whenever I gather all my courage to move towards
Many times they just walk out of my life without notice
And I am forced to accept it
Losing faith and in fear
Will there even be a meant to be that is mutual?
Something that set the mind thinking

Short post here for a small break.
Till then peeps
Aja aja fighting!

Wednesday! Midweek!
Had been a busy week since the code Orange!
Pretty stressed up.
Need desserts to reverse the stressed soon!
Last Friday D&D was still fun
The presence of my lovely SG3 Peeps definitely make me let my hair loose a little.
Thanks for the "Whisky+Hot Tea" Combo, "Red Wine + Tiger Beer" Combo drink
Hopefully a better year for everyone
Though I am not with them fighting this pandemic, I am definitely rooting for you guys!
Didn't take much of photos.
Just 1 selfies here.
First try on smokey eyes.
Guess my make up skills up a little bit?

Just a short post and update here.
Till then peeps.
Aja aja fighting!

Fridayy!
Well, there is D&D tonight~
Leaving office in 30 mins time!
Kampung theme for this year.

Can't decide what to wear
Cos I'm feeling fat!
Wearing tight dress might be challenging

Many people will not be going due to nCov
SG3 Peeps still working hard
People who just came back from China gotta quarantine for 14 days
People who fall sick have to stay at home

Hopefully the whole nCov would be gone soon
Those who are supporting for this in a way or another
Jiayou and a super big thank you for everything

Gonna end work soon!
Till then peeps~
Aja aja fighting!

Tuesday.
Busy in the meeting the whole morning.
Had a good 2km run yesterday
Though I target at least a 2.4km
Thanks to the gastric.

Weighing the pros and cons
Kinda sort out my thoughts
Just let go of things that perhaps not worth the thought

It felt lighter

Simplicity is definitely much comfortable than complexity
Nevertheless, I feel I am still learning
To learn to let go of things that I used to stubbornly hold on to
There is no ending to life lessons
Its the every experience that makes each lesson well learnt from.
体验也是另一种领悟.

Life can be taken seriously and not.
Just how you prioritize every part of it.

Till then peeps~
Mid week is coming soon!
DND this friday at Raffles City Convention with Kampung theme.
Look forward or not?
I definitely look forward catching up with the previous colleagues and some drinking session after that!

Monday. As usual very blue.
Decided to go for a jog after work.
Had much thoughts ran through the mind.
Suddenly it hit me as to how unclear things are
The insecurities set in.
Which what always give me butterflies
And sometimes I don't have the courage to confront it
Or perhaps just follow as it goes and not probing further.
The 便利贴 kinda mentality always got stuck in me
And I will just quietly disappear if I am not meant to be existed.

Perhaps something I need to work on.
To be braver
To have a stand
To not be a weakling and acting all nonchalant about things

I need to find what I really want in life.
I feel that I am losing myself
And I am not sure where I am heading to
When things are not that simple
It makes me feels stupid

Something I will need to think through really hard.
And I hope I will get through it
Strike hard on my weakness
Though it is definitely not possible to change overnight

I will try.
To be better.
Aja aja fwighting!
Never say die till you really battle hard!
Till then peeps~

Back to Work on CNY Day 4!
Life still goes on despite all the bad news to the new start of the year.

Kobe Bryant - Legend of the NBA World
RIP.
The life lessons you taught us through your humble words,
We will remember.

SARI Virus - Kudos to the Nurses and Doctors on the frontline.
Thanks for all the hard work to contain the virus from spreading especially those who are working in the isolation wards.

Turkey Earthquake - News was not much covered as the SARI virus news was too overwhelming.
Condolence to those who have lost their loved ones from the earthquake.

Nevertheless, we still have to get on to live.
Whatever that may come
Happy or Sad
Good or Bad
Hold on to the dreams
Forward with ambitions

A little thought that went through me.
Life lessons, there are too much to be learnt.
Experience life - Ups and Downs.
That what makes everyone's life different.
It is definitely not going to be smooth sailing.
But it is how we get through the storms and sunny days that make the ride worthwhile.

A little selfie to kickstart the Rat-tie Year! (Makeup and Meitu make wonders to the face, ikr~)
Till then peeps~